What? When? Where? How Long? Why?
WHAT?
Moving. On.
WHEN?
Starting today.
WHERE?
According to Wikipedia:A flipped image is a static or moving image that is generated by a mirror-reversal of an original across a horizontal axis.
Many large format cameras present the image of the scene being photographed as a flipped image through their viewfinders. Some photographers regard this as a beneficial feature, as the unfamiliarity of the format allows them to compose the elements of the picture properly without being distracted by the actual contents of the scene. The technique is meant to bypass or override the brain’s visual processing which normally sees what is expected rather than what is there.
In one day increments. I'll be back here if, when and however often I need to.
WHY?
A recurring goal in my life - especially since starting this blog - has been to "right size" the effect of my gayness/bi-ness/queerness on my life. For today I've achieved that. I love this blog and all I received from it. Its background is black. Changing that would change its essence.
Without denying my background, my essence, I'd like to try moving forward without being shadowed by it on a daily basis.
I want to see what’s there in my life, in me. Not just what’s expected to be there, by me and by others, but what’s really there. And if and how “expected” differs from “really.” And if it matters.
Today is my birthday. My Alcoholics Anonymous birthday. As of today I’ve been sober for three years. I announce this in order to show others what can happen, not as a form of self-congratulation.
My sobriety is a gift. A daily reprieve from the obsession to drink and the insanity drinking brings into my life. My sobriety gives me a chance and a choice. And today it has brought clarity and stability into my life. Clarity and stability which allow me to look at a flipped image without falling over. Or throwing up.
Peace out, y’all. I love you.
Flip
7 comments:
happy birthday. bran is now into his 25 year of sobriety...at least i think that's how long it's been. he's still "one day at a time." i'm glad you found mr. bill's way of walking through life. here's to today. tomorrow will come when it does.
Flipper:
Congratulations on three years well spent. I am not on your page on many counts, I know, but I am definitely on your side.
Hang in there, and fight the good fight. The "good fight" is always more important than the outcome.
T@C
Flip -
Given this flipped image, I'm reminded of a comment I recently saw on another blog:
I keep thinking of the story about the man who said he felt like he had two dogs inside of him, fighting. When asked which one was winning, he replied, "Which ever one I feed."
Apropos?
I think you can be well proud Flip.
When you come back here, we will be here
Really, Flip? Married w/kids & kinda gay too? Hmm...interesting. My Very Out hair guy (whom I adore) says that I live in the hugest capita of married-"hetero"-in-a-gay-affair men City in the US. Dallas......something to do with the Bible belt Southern expectations and how gay affairs aren't cheating in a hetero marriage. Ah well...not surprised.
Congrats on your Chip B-Day. I know it's hard. =)
WOW Congrats! You're awesome! I'll greatly miss you, and miss hearing your "I love you's!" too. I'll be thinking about you...and hoping you the best!
Hey Flip,
That is a milestone to be proud of. I thought of you listening to Imus one morning mentioning his years of Sobriety - I was struck by the exactness of the number so many years out.
Good luck with the right sizing. It is very elusive and I am beginning to realize that acceptance - very different to each of us - is the only road to right sizing. Clearly you are well on it.
Love and Hugs
HakaN
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