19 Feelings

Blocked.

1. Optimistic: Recently vacationed with wife. Best time we’ve had in years. Made me SO glad we did not split up.
2. Ashamed: Even more recently “played” twice
3. Optimistic / apathetically alarmed: Feeling less guilty than after some previous encounters
4. (Not) ashamed (enough): Possibly planning to “play” again this week.
5. Familiarly distracted: Desirous of almost every living human male observed under the age of 50. OK, 60.
6. Unfamiliarly distracted and (quite) puzzled: Recent noticing of / attraction to a few randomly observed women. Yes, I said women…what’s that all about?
7. Frustrated: Running into same brick walls at work. Regretting career choices
8. Depressed: 1 + (2 through 5)
9. Uncomfortable: Can’t manage to concoct a coherent, meaningful post.
10. Puzzled / uncomfortable / alarmed: Occasionally wishing to avoid rigorous honesty when imagining posts - specifically as related to 2 through 5, 18.
11. Exhausted: Jet lag + crazy work schedule + 7
12. Inadequate: 2, 4, 5, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11
13. Lonely / sadly resigned: Remembering that there is no perfect solution.
14. Lonely / frightened: No time / energy to catch up with blogs / bloggers.
15. Frightened, but not enough: Attended an AA meeting once in past four weeks. Talked to sponsor zero.
16. Self-Unimpressed: 1 + (2 through15), 17,18.
17. Bemused: Recent online / phone conversations with extreme myopia fetishist attracted to Flip's Coke bottle glasses (not making this up).
18. Depressed / titillated: Recent conversations / interactions(!) with potential married sub slave.
19. Pessimistic: 2 through 16, 17 kind of, 18
    

Cleared.

Flip